Feeling Human


Everyone has something they do that makes them feel a bit more 'human', that helps them start their day. For me, it's makeup. I love doing my makeup and it's part of my morning routine, it really helps me feel like I'm up fresh and ready and get me out of the morning sleepy phase.

I've been having my eyebrows done since I was around 15 and getting my hair and nails done has been something I've been doing for years. I love having these treatments done because they're my little bit of 'me time' I feel that I rarely get. In addition to these treatments, I've loved the idea of eyelash extensions since they became a thing, although I was too nervous to try them in case they went wrong or looked bad.

I was put in contact with a lovely girl called Iyesha, who does a HD brow service as well as eyelash extensions. I was originally going to get just my eyelashes donee, however recently I've looked back over some photos and seen that my eyebrows looked a bit off. I've always got them done at a generic eyebrow salon and they weren't really tailored to me at all. These photos are the outcomes of my HD brows and eyelash extension treatments - I am in love!


When I spoke to Iyeasha she explained HD brows and what set them apart from the normal styles of eyebrow shaping. HD brows for those of you don't know they are 'high definition' brows. They are completely tailored to the shape of your face, what will look best for you as well as enhancing your natural brows too. There are 7 steps to the HD brow process which include a consultation, preparation with patch testing, tinting, waxing, threading, finishing and finally a follow up with the beautician giving advice and after care information.

I ended up having an appointment for both because I felt I should give my eyebrows a little bit more tending too, as well as treating myself with lashes.

I was quite nervous, especially about the eyebrows as they are quite key in the makeup of the face.  However Iyesha was so welcoming and really made me feel comfortable before and during the treatments. She explained what she was doing and why so that I knew what the treatment was like, and during she kept updating me on how it was going. During the treatments we had a chat and I got to know her better, it was really nice having someone so kind and welcoming doing my treatments as it meant I wasn't uncomfortable at all.


At the moment Iyeasha does 'classic' style lashes, but tailors it completely how you like it. I'm a very fussy person and she was so patient with me when it came to me having to make decisions in regards to the tint colour, the lash lengths and look of it.

If you're around the Buckinghamshire area and are looking to get HD brows or eyelash extensions, you can get 15% off your first treatment with Iyesha, if you quote 'Holly Anastasia' when booking in with her!

I've linked below her contact where you can book in appointments with her, so let me know if you go as I would love to see the results! I'm so in love with my results and it's definitely going to become a monthly appointment because now I've had them done, I can't go back!

Holly Anastasia x

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Photography: JKG Photography

Put together & perfect


I don't have time to breathe. 

Anyone else feel like that? I need to work, eat healthy, sleep, keep fit, see friends, see family, the list never ends. I feel so pressured to do all these things right and all the time, who is pressuring me to do that though? 


I want to be able to do it all. I want to be that put together girl who manages to do everything. One of those people who get everything done and still has time for cocktails on a random Thursday. One of those girls who walks to work with a cup of coffee and perfect hair. I want to be seen as the girl who's got it all together. Yet I really don't have it together, I'm the opposite of together right now. 

So I really don't know where I've got this ideal person from?


Even though I try and be this person, there is always something that throws me off course and makes me feel like I've failed. My question is, am I actually failing? Is it even possible to be this girl or have I made it up. Surely if I've made it up can't be failing, so why does it feel like I am all the time?


In reality I never rarely go for cocktails - although they are the way to my heart - I walk to work with hot chocolate, not coffee, spilling on my hands with hair that has been ruined by the wind. I am not that perfect looking image and I'm definitely not the perfect together person inside.

I hate loosing control of things that I can control. I try and ensure that I plan and prepare for everything. Travel, clothes, makeup, I organise everything down to the tiny details. No matter how hard I try, there is always something that stops me from being in control.


After a good few years of feeling I'm not good enough yet, I've come to realise that I've made this standard of person up. No one has ever told me to be that person, I've just convinced myself it's a real standard I could eventually live up to. Yet I know that I'll never be that put together, perfect Holly, and I've now realised that maybe it's not something I'd want. I need to let that image go and stop comparing myself to a standard that just doesn't exist.



By comparing myself to that unrealistic standard, I'm not letting myself breathe. I have no ability to shut down and relax, I'm always thinking of what I have to plan next, but I want to be living in the moment.  If living in the moment means that I slip up from time to time that I need to accept that. 

It's hard to listen to my own advice, and I rarely do. However I seem to love dishing it out, so here's what I would say to my friends if they were asking for help in this situation.

It's okay not to be perfect. No one is expecting you to be. We're only human. If we were all perfect, life would be no fun and we need these flaws and mistakes to learn and appreciate life. So stop stressing about it and try to remember to experience life, not to control it.

Holly Anastasia xx

PHOTOGRAPHY: JKG Photography

Breakups


Breakups are crap. They make you feel terrible for weeks, question yourself in all areas, cry and distract yourself for a long time.

I was seeing a guy - lets call him Daniel - for around 2 years. We were never an official couple and although that may sound strange to some of you - seeing someone for that long without being together - it worked for us and that's what mattered. However, seeing someone for that long, spending so much time with each other, just meant we grew so close in every way. I have never been so completely in sync with someone as I had been with Daniel. It felt almost the same as having a boyfriend, most of the same emotions, the feelings and mutual care were there. For all intents and purposes, we had a relationship.


Recently we mutually ended it because he was going back to uni. We both knew it was coming because we had agreed this a while back. This didn't mean we didn't care - it wasn't just one night stands over and over, it was more. We met each others families, became friends with each others friends; we were involved in each others' lives.

When you become so invested in someone like that, it is hard to let go, whether or not you saw it coming. Daniel is one of the best people I know - we are still friends now and we would never take back the time we had. I thought I would go through all those crappy breakup feelings and drop everything just to mourn the relationship, however that was very different from how I've been feeling.


I did cry hard at first, I felt sad and I sometimes still have a few tears (bear in mind guys, this was only 2 months ago!) yet I didn't feel any of the crap I've gone through in breakups before, which got me confused. I didn't question myself, I didn't stop everything; there was no regret or anger, nothing. I just thought why, why am I not feeling as I 'should be' after a breakup? (I almost felt guilty for not feeling those things, wondering whether it was because I wasn't actually as sad as I should be.)


As I said, Daniel is an amazing guy and I'm grateful for having him in my life and being so close for so long. He is a positive, caring person and he is always having fun; he is definitely one of those people who has a personality you never forget. 

When I met him I was shy and quite negative in some aspects. Being with him brought me out of my shell.


He taught me how to look on the positive side of everything, he built my confidence and took me out of my comfort zone and showed me that I can do what I thought I couldn't. I used to think I was just a shy person and that was it, I would never be able to change that. I now know that if you shove me in a room full of strangers I can find my own way. At first I shone with Daniel by my side, but I had to have him next to me. Over the past year or so I saw that I could do it all myself.

Being with someone so confident, positive and happy for that long meant it just rubbed off on me. I know he helped me to grow into a better version of myself I never knew existed, but after while I realised that the key, is that although he helped me grow, he didn't create me.


He showed me what I could be and I grew into that person. So when we ended it, I knew I'd be okay. People have been saying to me 'you seem surprisingly okay' about the whole situation. In actual fact I'm not 'okay', I'm still gutted we had to end it as we were so good together, but I know I will be okay.

I know that I am a great person and I now know my potential. Through it all I am remembering all these things I am, rather than all the negatives.

Daniel enabled me to see my potential I am the one who now believes it and will maintain it. 

Holly Anastasia xx

PHOTOGRAPHY: JKG PHOTOGRAPHY

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